January 7, 2005 - Friday

January 7, 2005 - Friday

Tsunamis, Earthquakes, Volcanos and California....
Current mood: contemplative
What do thay all have in common. Theyre all disasters. Yet, i cannot peel my eyes away from them. (well, except california, cause i live here) But i dont know. I've been downloading and watching amature video of the Tsunami's for the last week now, and i cant get my eyes off of them. I do this with Tornado and Volcano video too, or some other type of natural disaster. Theres just something about them that fuels me in some weird way. Not in a sick, sexual fetish, but in "mother fucker, i cant belive this shit but i must see more" way. One of the video's i have is from a person in Indonesia (right next to were the quake hit) and this person walks to their 2nd story balcony and video tapes what looks like a TOWN DROP IN THE MIDDLE OF A FRIGGIN OCEAN. Its ungodly unbeliveable. Another video is from further away from the main earthquake zone, but its an american guy on a beach watching as the WAVE forms only a mile off coast and heads right for him. One other one was a view on top of a roof in Phuket Tailand as the wave crashed onshore and tore apart the coast line, as people ran running and screaming. It really puts things into perspective. But as people, we may think we have a lot of things in control, but honestly, we dont. All of the video, especailly Tailand and Indonesia all looks like WRATH OF GOD style shit. Just the fact that all of this happens the day after christmas, this wide range of destruction, its so unbelivable that its more real to me in some real sense. Maybe its because i grew up watching movies were giant monsters destroyed cities or the fact i've had a healty diet of Tornado video and Earthquake experiance that i've come to look forward to the next disaster and disect it piece by piece. Hell, even during the 9/11 attacks, i was more focused on the actuall destruction and mayhem than the actuall outcome of the events. People running and screaming for their lives as a force thats out of their hands, YET not a LIVING FORCE, tears right for them, seems horrible, yet a suddle underline of poetic substances dwells within it. This stuff like this that makes me belive that theres a higher force at work sometimes. This is why i dont like going to the beach at night. You wouldnt know something like this is coming untill it hit you.

This was written about a week after the big tsunami that hit the Indian Ocean. The videos were just starting to come out and I was fascinated to no ends by them. I still have a weird obsession with large scale disasters though.