September 25, 2004 - Saturday

September 25, 2004 - Saturday

The meaning of LIFE?
You know, some people think you shouldnt just question some things. LIKE the president, wether you voted for him or not. Or what Hot Dogs are made out of. I got into an one of these "Political" arguments with my boss today, who is a Firm Republican and bush supporter, and hey, i got no problem with that. But he gave me somthing that he recived on the net that made some sense. It was a guy writing to his sons about "Losing" the war on terror. It wasnt political in any way as he said it did not concern if you were a dem or repub. but the fact that America must win the war on Terror. He said it wouldnt be like NAM as these "Extremenist" wont stop untill all "infidels" are dead. He pointed out to how Spain withdrew after the train bombing and now that the "terroist" know that Spain will submit to threats, they have Spain in their pocket. Anyway, he said that America has never really lost, and he didnt mean "Nam" lost either, but the fact that America hasnt lost a battle that ment a change in the way of life, and that if AMERICA did lose, it could be the collapes of this country because, 1. america is built on WINNING (no one likes losing, we've been taught since childhood that winning is everything), 2. That these terroists can over turn the very foundation of the way of america and the rest of the world. It made some sense. But i told my boss that it really wouldnt matter if we win or lose because no matter how we win, 1. All it'll do is piss of the rest of th muslim world, thus starting the circle of crap again, so unless you "SMASH" the muslim way of life, your never going to get rid of the extremenist, 2. Even if we win the "war on terror". as history has taught us, it will repeate it self, and some one new will take the place as the "Threat" to the way of life in AMERICA. We had the Indians, the British, OURSELVES, The Germans, the GERMANS again, The Russians, the Chinese, now the muslim extremenist. So whats the point i said. I told him when you get down to the main point of it all, its all so trivial and childish. Why are we fighting. Because a couple of guys who feel that "Their god is better than our god, and think we're wrong." But we think that we're right, so we fight back. Its like Grade school saying my dad can beat up your dad, you get into it and start coming to blows because you cant get the other guy to see it your way because you think your right. But then i hit him with thats how most of life as we know it is. All very Trival and childish. We live in a socitey that all we do is this in our life time. We're born. We go to school. We're taught in school to pay attention and learn so that when we get out of school that we can get a good job so we can make money and live the good life untill you die. Its all so pointless. And i dont mean just that, i mean everything we do in life is point less. We get up, to do what, go to work or to take care of our daily needs. Why? Whats the point. Theres nothing in nature or any biblical teaching that i know of that says we're suppose to be doing this. Money, owning things, going to the store, cleaning, paying the bills, going to sporting events, crime, justice, punisment, working, Its all crap that man has brought upon itself that has no real meaning in life, yet its the main focus in EVERYONE'S life. And there is no meaning to it other than just something to do with the time we have on this planet. If you look at it, there is no meaning to anything we do in life, or life as we know it. There is no reason to be fighting in Iraq. There is no meaning to getting worried over your bills. There is no meaning over getting worried over how you look. The only reason we do is because man has imbedded itself so much with this shit that we have made it a way of life. If we didnt have this system, we would feel that we're not doing anything important. We couldnt have crime fighting if there wasnt any crime. We couldnt have a goverment if there was no nation. Its all meaningless Its basicly this. Theres no point in living, but no one wants to die. So, i've stopped caring about all of this shit in life. My main goal in life now, if to make movies, and hopefully that ill at least entertain someone on this earth before they die. But am i going to become an asshole. NO, theres no reason to continue the making life harder on everyone else because it would make life harder on you. So yeah. Just give it a thought.

I think this was my first point of enlightenment. I was really trying to ponder and philosophizes at this point in my life. My frame of mind, that the world we move about in, the one that man kind has created for its self, is really nothing. Its nothing. And if you die, it'll move on, but its not doing anything. We work, spend money, keep an ECONOMY going... Its all, nothing. And that people stress themselves out over this is mind boggling to me today.