March 20th 2005

March 20, 2005 - Sunday

I've come to the conclusion that im cursed (or some shit like that)
Current mood: contemplative
I have been thinking over the last couple of days about my lack of a love life (lack, ok theres NONE) I disscused this with a couple of friends of mine over an early morning breakfest at 3 am at dennys. Now since High School, there was a small little incedent (im not going into it) But lets just say that there was a girl that liked me, but i didnt feel the same way. Well, ever since then, even when i come remotely close to either A) asking a girl out B) finding out a chick is into me. Some short of shit happens. Its too odd and detailed to go over every incedent, but lets just say that i think that i've been cursed or at least have some bad Jew-Jew put on me to never obtain a girlfriend, or at the very least, get laid. and because of this, my family thinks im gay. They cant comprehend why i dont have a Girlfriend. But in the generalization of things, i've learnd that Chicks dont dig big, loud, guys who simply just like the simpler things in life. ( ok, so i watch cartoons still) But in those Rare occasions in which i think i might be able to even ask a chick out, something happens to prevent it. So yeah. I hate my life! YEAY!!!!

I still joke that I'm under some sort of curse after turning that girl down in highschool. My self confidence hasnt risen much and my love life never got into any sort of gear. Though, I'm not so angry and bitter about it now.